It's time to start blogging again. The last few years have been busy. Very busy. The transition from one to two kids was exhilarating and exhausting. Most days I felt like I was being pulled in a million different directions all day long. That's not to say that things have calmed down much. My two boys are still as energetic as ever and I love every minute. There is nothing that I would rather do than spend my days sharing their lives when they need and want me the most.
I stopped blogging consistently right around the time that I became pregnant with Elijah. I had morning sickness and a toddler who needed all of the energy and attention that I was able to muster. As time passed it just seemed like it would be too hard to catch up, so eventually days, then weeks and now years have gone by. I disappointed to realize that I have lost that opportunity to document my memories of these precious boys who are growing so fast because I have let myself believe that I couldn't just pick up where I left off.
I felt overwhelmed and often guilty about keeping my blog. I thought that I had to write down every little detail of our lives and I couldn't leave anything out or I would be cheating Samuel out of those memories. Mom guilt at it's worst. I also thought that I had to write a novel with a ton of photos to recreate the moments and bring them back to life. I have evolved since then and now want this to just be a snapshot. I will share moments that mean the most. When I can keep up I will and when life is crazy-busy and too hectic I may not be around much. I hope that I can capture the wonderful, lively, joyful boys that make me so happy. That is the only goal now.
